"Every Human mind is a great slumbering power until awakened by a keen desire and by definite resolution to do".

Inspired by Steve...

Known as:
Shaz, Shazzie, Shazzie-Boo, Shazzle, Shazley, Shazza

Born:
16/04/1981

Haircolor:
Medium Brown

Eyecolor:
blue/green

SECTION 2 - HAVE YOU EVER...

Fallen off the bed?
Lol yep!

Broken someone else's heart?
I doubt that very much.

Had your heart broken?
Oh yeah!

Had a dream come true?
Nup

SECTION 3 - CURRENTLY...

Wearing:
Black pants, black singlet top, gold wrap thingy. :)

Listening to:
Neighbours and the tapping of my lappy keys.

Located:
On my bed.

Watching:
Computer and Neighbours.

Should REALLY be:
Getting ready for my last Thursday night at dancing. :(

SECTION 4 - DO YOU...

Do you brush your teeth?
of course

Have any piercings?
One in each ear.

Drive?
Nah... :P

Have a cell phone?
Yep

SECTION 5 - THE LAST PERSON YOU...

Hugged:
Benji

IMed:
Ez

Talked with on the phone:
Some dude at work.

SECTION 7 - PERSONAL...

What do you want to be when you grow up?
A good Mum and happy.

What comes first in your life?
My family, Ben, and my friends.

What are you most scared of?
Being outside in the dark alone.

What do you usually think about before you go to bed?
How little time I have before my alarm will go off :(

Did you lose someone you really loved?
Thankfully not, I have a young family.

SECTION 8 - FAVORITE...

Movie:
I have many favourites.

Store:
Don't have one.

Cousin:
What a retarded question!

Food:
Mac and Cheese... yummy!

Candy:
Chocolate, Black Forest... *drools*

Day of the week:
Saturday

color:
Jade Green

SECTION 9 - DO YOU...

Like to give hugs?
DUH! I'm a hug whore! :P

Like to walk in the rain?
In summer

Prefer black or blue?
Blue

Sleep on your side?
Always

Have a goldfish?
no

Ever have the falling dream?
yep, a lot

Have stuffed animals?
Yep, and I have two of Quinnie's. :P

FIRSTS

First best friend:
Some boy from my court in England, can't remember his name.

First screen name:
Huh?

First self purchased CD:
LOL... Savage Garden, shuddup man!

First pets:
Fluffy the Hamster

First piercing/tattoo:
I got my ears pierced at 4

LASTS

Last car ride:
Me driving home from work.

Last good cry:
About 30 minutes ago, I really don't want to quit dancing :(

Last phone call:
A guy at work(haven't I had this question already)

Last time showered:
Just had one.

Last shoes worn:
My black boots.

Last item bought:
Lunch

Last annoyance:
Being sick

Last website visited:
Clearly blogger since I'm blogging and facebook

Last word/s you said:
"Zoran stop humping me, ya horny Bastard" LMAO!!!! (Seriously :P)

What's under your bed?:
Nothing, carpet!

What time did you wake up today?:
7am, sleep in - woot!

Current mood:
Meh... upset I guess.

current food:
Nothing

Current hair:
Plaited

Current hate:
Being sick and being made to quit something I love!

Following in the girl's footsteps...

Currently:
- Stressing about my Dancing exams on Sunday.
- Upset because it's my last night of teaching tonight and I'm going to miss it like crazy.
- HAPPY because I just opened a letter from Quinnie!
- SAD, because I miss him so much :(
- Cold, so very cold!!
- Wishing I could go back on holiday with Ben.

Looking forward to:
- Next weekend's Ball and dressing up.
- Performing in the Teacher's Floorshow at the Ball.
- Scott's party.
- Having time to relax and heal.
- Seeing all the awesome movies out atm.

Hating:
- Giving up teaching.
- Inconsideration.
- Being sick.
- Lack of sleep.
- Having to work.

You'll Never Walk alone? I'm not so sure...

It has occurred to me lately that even though our lives are intertwined with one another's, they are very independently lived. We all have our own lives, consisting of our own problems, and own ambitions. I have been playing the "counsellor" for a few people lately (a refreshing change as it's normally me with the problems) and it made me realise that we all have issues in our lives that for the most part, we have to deal with alone. Our family and friends are there of course to help us with them, but in the end, any decisions and accountabilities are ours alone to bear. Many of us talk about our futures and what we want out of life, but when doing so have little consideration for the people around us. They seldom consider what impact their future paths have on the people already in their lives. By chasing their dreams, or following a new path, do they even consider those people they are leaving behind? And is this necessarily a bad thing? Would we be selfish in excepting them to? I’m starting to believe life isn’t designed to be shared, it’s meant to be lived solo. We’re born alone, we live alone, and we die alone. Only throughout love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we’re not alone. But is it just that, an illusion?
I have always believed in the saying “A problem shared is a problem halved” but I’m starting to wonder how true this is. When confiding in a friend and sharing our problems, how interested is the other person really? How much do they really care when the issue doesn’t directly affect them? And when asking for advice or opinions from friends, are we really interested in their responses, or are we only hoping to hear what we want to hear? I always believed that life was suppose to be shared and experienced with the people we love, that this was the way of measuring it’s worth. But I am starting to think differently, I’m starting to think maybe life is supposed to be lived alone. “Whoever starts out toward the unknown must consent to venture alone”.

A new start...

So... as most of you know, I have recently been temping at an Airconditioning company to see me over until something permanent comes up. Well, I have obviously made an impression, as I got a phonecall on Friday saying that the company had fired their regular Receptionist and would like me to stay on fulltime. Kinda amusing, although I feel somewhat guilty about it. She went on annual leave for a couple of weeks (that's why I was temping there) to come back to be told that your replacement is more efficient and friendly, and we want to keep her. LMAO!!! So I am currently on a trial and things look good. The Company is called Allstaff Airconditioning and we specialise in commercial airconditioning. We have a estimating, service, drawing, admin, and special projects division, as well as a factory where the units are made. It's a big business with many awesome employees. The only thing that SUCKS about this job is the hours. I now have to get up at 6:30am every morning to be in Dingley by 7:45am... I mean really, who gets up that early, the sun hasn't even bothered to wake up at that hour!!!! So yeah, my hours are 7:45-5pm. It's a long 9 hour day followed by work at the studio, on average I work 13 hour days...I'M BUGGERED!!!! But meh, what can ya do :)

So onto other news, it's medal time again, and I have another three Gold Exams coming up (Swing, Tango Terrific, and La Bomba), followed by the Mid Year Ball. Details for the ball are as follows:

WHERE: MarShere Langwarrin
McClelland Drive
Langwarrin
WHEN: Saturday 19th July 2008
DRESS: Formal
COST: $25
BYO: Food and Drinks

It's a lot of fun, and an excuse to dress up. A couple of you have already said you are coming, but to the rest of you, please let me know asap as it's a ticket only event and I need to organize our table (this includes you Amy, I need final numbers for Rick and your families).

Hrm... not much more to say really, oh except 16 more days until my holiday WOOT!!! I can't wait :D

HOLY SHIT - this kid is awesome to the max!

Life is an art we are required to practice without preparation, a score that we play at sight even before we have mastered our instruments

I haven't posted a real blog in ages, so I though I would just start typing and see what comes from it. Life generally has been really good of late. Ben and I are back together, and things are going well. He is amazing and makes me feel better about myself. I love being with him. Actually, it seems love is in the air all around, as there are some random hook ups happening at the moment. Ben and I were laughing about it last night. We were laying in bed talking and we heard both Fudge and Scotty came home from their (separate) "dates" last night... hehehe. It was amusing. Also, Cara is finally going to Bendigo to see her "Robbie" and the already existing couples seem to be happy too. Awww... doesn't it make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside :P BAHAHAHAA!!!!

Although not all is perfect in my life. For those whom don't know, I was "retrenched" from work on Monday and so as of Friday, have no income. It was pretty harsh actually, as I was called into a meeting at 4:45pm and told I wouldn't be needed the following day. Pretty dodgie considering I have worked there for almost 2 years. Apparently, it had nothing to do with work performance as they are very happy with mine, but they aren't able to make my position permanent and feel it's not fair to keep me there knowing it will never change. They have decided to rotate temps every three months instead, which makes no sense at all, because by the time they have trained my replacement, a new person will start... retards, oh well it's their loss isn't it! I have to start looking for something new pronto as the bills and rent don't vanish just because I'm out of work. Although, on the plus side, I have loved having this week off (paid) as it's been a nice break :) But now it's time to get motivated and find a new job.

Oh... woot. I just got a phonecall from one of the jobs I applied for less than an hour ago, I have an interview in a hour and a half... Gotta go :)

UPDATE: The interview went really well, I have a second with the CEO next week... fingers crossed :)