A fantastic song!

I don’t mind it
I don’t mind at all
It’s like you’re the swing set
And I’m the kid that falls
It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion’s there
So it’s got to be right
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t mind it
I still don’t mind at all
It’s like one of those bad dreams
When you can’t wake up
It looks like you’ve given up
You’ve had enough
But I want more
No I won't stop
Because I just know
You’ll come around
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

Just don’t stand there and watch me fall
Because I, because I still don’t mind at all

It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion's there
So it’s got to be right,
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t believe you

Time to Blog...

Wow, its been ages since I blogged so I thought I would start typing and see what happens... So, what's been going on in my life of late? Well, lots really. I have recently discovered how unpredictable life really is. Things happen, things change, and we are left thinking what the hell! But its up to us to pick ourselves up off the ground (or our jaws in some cases) and work through these hurdles. Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change our lives forever. Life is not lying in wait in the future like some ominous destiny, or hidden in the heavens, like a paradise or promise. Nor is it shut up in the prison of our past. It is here and now, it is what we live and what we do. I still believe that everything we experience in our individual and combined lives mould us into who we are, and who we will become. Unfortunately its not always an easy path and the simple sounding sentence “Hang in there” or “things will get better” seem worthless. But as cliche as it sounds, Nobody said life would be easy, they just said it would be worth it! So I'm trying to keep that in mind. On a positive, its times like this I realise how lucky I am to have friends and family who love and support me. Thanks Erin, you have been my lifeline!

Anyways, that's enough of that! This is what I have been up to... I've started a new job at Spectrum Fire in Nunawading, which is ok, and most of the people there are nice, but its nearly a two hour round trip and that sucks hardcore!! I hate driving on the Monash! But meh, its money so I can't really complain. I'm there until about Christmas. The company is expanding and have purchased a larger office complex in Hallam, where their Nunawading, Hallam, and Thomastown branches will merged into one. Unfortunately, the Hallam office already has a receptionist, so there won't be a position for me there. But in the meantime I will find something else, and all will be good.

Onto other news, I had a car accident last Monday, which pissed me off. I need a new bumper. I ran up the arse of someone, so technically its my fault, but the stupid woman missed her exit (on the Monash) and rather than taking the next one, she decided to slam on her brakes and try and make it anyway, so of course... BANG! I hit her :( It could have been a lot worse, and I wasn't hurt at all, so I guess that's something to be grateful for. Still, it is really annoying, I'm completely jinxed when it comes to cars, I seem to attract all the retarded drivers, it must be a curse! And shuddup people, I can hear your laughter from here... I swear I'm a great driver, its OTHER drivers that are the problem! :P

September 27th was Cabaret and my Gold Star exams. My rumba (which was my first Gold Star level exam) was choreographed by myself and therefore I was very nervous about it. I added some crazy figures and an insane about of turns and spirals, but thankfully I managed not to fall on my arse when performing it, and nailed all the dips and lunges etc. I received a High Distinction for both my Rumba and Argentine Tango, and so I was happy. I tried to upload the videos onto here but it's being a Monkami, so if you want to see them, they are on my Facebook. Thanks to those who came and gave me support, especially Ez who's screams were so loud they were heard over the music and are on the video :P


I had MarShere's Aurora Awards on October 25th. It was great. It was held at the Convention and Exhibition Center in the city, and thanks heaps to Benji for driving me there and home again. And thanks Jase for letting us use your car :) You guys are the best :P Everyone looked awesome and the band was cool. I wore the most amazing dress and managed to feel like a princess for a night. Once all the boring awards had been presented, it was a good night. There was about 1200 people there so it was pretty crowded, but it was awesome to catch up with some of my old Ferntree Gully friends as that is the studio I learnt to dance at. Here are a couple of photos.


The Karaoke comp is back, and this time first prize is $1000 ( I SO want that money). Trav, Will, (PJ, for those of you that know him) and myself have made the final, but there's still a few weeks before it takes place, so I encourage you ALL to give it a go. It's $1000!!! You've got nothing to lose! This especially goes out to Brylee, you've got a great voice, you will just need to hang around long enough to be chosen :P We will have to make the final a big pub night with everyone there, and make sure I have plenty of wine before I have to get up there and sing... aarrrgghhh! LOL I will let you know the date when I find it out myself :P

Christmas is only about 6 ½ weeks away (that's scary) how freaking fast has this year gone??? What are peoples' plans for it? Is anyone going away with family? I assume most of us will be with our families for most of the day, but maybe we could meet up on Christmas Eve. Do we wanna have a Kris Kringle deal this year? It would be cool to exchange presents, but seeing as the group is rather large, a Kris Kringle would be a much cheaper alternative and yet still ensuring that we all get something. Maybe a $20 limit? It would be nice to do something with the WHOLE group, maybe a special meal and then go look at Christmas lights or something. We should discuss this and plan something soon. Let me know what you think.

Moving on to some more randomness, I wrote a song, and am trying desperately to write lyrics for it, man that's hard. So if anyone is concealing a lyric writing talent, yell out, I could use your help!Its a piano ballad (as much as Nat and Sean will hate that fact) lol, but its nice and for those of you who will understand this, it has a lot of minor chords creating a smooth, dark sound. It reflects exactly how I was feeling when I wrote it, but it needs lyrics, it has a strong melody which should be sung... c'mon, someone must be good at poetry or even just writing!!! LOL Speaking of writing songs, I finally got my birthday present from Jase a few weeks ago. He wrote me a song, how awesome is that? Hehehe... I love it, thanks Jase xo

Ok, so its late now and considering I have had a migraine for the last 3 days, I should probably get some rest. Tomorrow is Melbourne Cup (WOOT! Day off) so I will see you all at the BBQ. In conclusion here's a quote I heard the other day and thought I'd share it with you all... "Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born." - Anais Nin