Nobody Wins.....

It's 3am, I start to cry, I'm alone again, I tried so hard not to fall in love, But here I am. You couldn't even pretend, that you cared if this is the end. There's nothing else I can say, what can I do? We might have worked out some day, but it takes two. So much for your promises, they died the day you let me go. Now you have given me, nothing but shattered dreams, I feel like I could run away from this empty heart of mine. I woke up to reality, and found the future not so bright. I dreamt the impossible, that maybe things could work out right. I kept my mouth shut for too long. Now we're in this way too far, you’re about to break my heart and tear everything we had apart. I'm feeling lost when I'm in your arms. The reasons are gone for why I was holding on to you. I tried so hard to be the one, but now I don't like who I've become. I kept it all inside of me for all this time. I thought that I could make it work if I just tried. Searching for the truth in your eyes, I found myself so lost I don't recognize the person now that you are. Maybe there's beauty in goodbye, no one's wrong or right, there's just no reason left to try. Now it's gone too far, look at where we are. You push me away, it’s another black day, let's count up the reasons to cry. Look what you've missed, living like this…..Nobody wins.

Stolen from Fudgey......

Please give it a go, I am really interested in your comments:

1. The word that best describes me is?

2. The proverbial straw was?

3. My Favourite Song?

4. My Favourite Weather?

5. My take on capital punishment?

6. My life goal?

7. My Dream Guy?

8. A cliche that shouldn't make me cringe, and why.

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xoxo

Sunshine, lollipops and rainbows everywhere.....

Well I'm feeling much more like myself now. Sorry about the Emo post last time, it was just some random issues that had been fueling my thoughts recently. Thanks to the special person whom made me release that if I didn't care as much as I did, I wouldn't be Shazzie, and for the most part, she's a nice person to be.

To Care or not to Care, that is the question.

I've just spent 30 minutes reading over Steve's blog and comments and I realized that I have a lot of opinions about a lot of issues. This is annoying. It's hard being so passionate about things. Sometimes I feel as though my heart is going to explode. I have always thought having a big heart was a good thing. It allows me to care and respect more about people. But lately I have realized that this isn't always a good thing. You see, when you allow yourself to care too much about people or anything really, you are leaving yourself wide open for heartache. And when you care as intensely about something or someone as I do, the heartache is can be unbearable. I have always been "too sensitive" and I realize that this is probably my worst personality trait, but I always thought it was counter-balanced by the fact it meant I cared. It seems however, that I was wrong. Someone recently pointed out to me that there's no point in caring about the world or the people whom live in it, as sooner or later, it will come back and bite you on the arse. I thought this person was just being negative and grumpy, but after much consideration, I think they have a point.

I've always been (or tried to be) the peace keeper. The one whom always looked at people's positive qualities rather then dwell on the negative ones. But lately I have found myself wondering why I'm bothering. I mean, there are so many people around me whom constantly bring me down. Whether it be because they are miserable in their life, or they can only feel better in themselves by putting others down, or maybe they just don't know how else to act. I have always thought it was my "mission" to help these people. And on a selfish level, it made me feel better about myself too, but I truly am starting to doubt whether the effort is warranted.

Now before you all start to worry or wonder whom I'm referring to, trust me when I say, it's no one person, nor is it anyone whom will read this. This is just the way I have been feeling during the last couple of weeks and I am taking this opportunity to vent.

Bad things happen to good people all the time and I wonder whether this is the universe's way of telling us that life simply sucks. Wow I'm starting to sound Emo.... That's it, I'm going now to find something sharp to cut myself!! That is all.